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[fatalissimo]

I'm not really the sort for philosophical things, or romantic things, and I think I've told at least one person that I'm not good at Zen stuff, either. But once in a while something happens and it just sort of makes you think about the sort of stuff you wouldn't normally, I guess.

Do you ever think that we were brought here to meet someone specific? To maybe have an experience that we wouldn't have back home, and even if we won't remember it, for a little while we'll turn out better for it.

Or something.

Maybe it's just the season making me all nostalgic or something, who knows. It's a stupid question anyway. But it's something that I've been wondering about once in a while.

No one seems to know why the hell we're here anyway; that sounds as good as anything else.

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[glaciates]

That's entirely possible. I'm not very close to many people from other worlds, so that could explain why I've been here for so long.

[It might explain a lot though; if you're here to meet a specific person from another world, who knows how long that might take?]

Is there someone specific you think you were supposed to meet here?

[fatalissimo]

I don't know. Maybe. I've come across a lot of people that I get along with in ways that I didn't with people back home, so I think that might be part of it. That's what got me thinking about it.

[glaciates]

It's kind of a nice thought in a way. I mean, especially for people who don't have anything to return to.

[fatalissimo]

[...there's a bit of a pause before she responds.]

Do you not?

[glaciates]

[There's a pause on his end as well, and when he replies it's with a lock.]

Yeah. I'm dead back home.

[fatalissimo]

Ah, shit...

We keep hitting things like this, don't we?

[glaciates]

Yeah, sorry, I guess I should have mentioned it earlier. It's not usually the sort of thing that comes up though.

[fatalissimo]

[...what the hell, sir.]

...You apologize for the weirdest things, Beastmaster. Why are you sorry?

[glaciates]

Because it suddenly came up and made everything awkward.

[You can practically hear the question mark on the end of that. No really, is this why he's apologizing?? How should he know?]

[fatalissimo]

So? It came up because I asked. It's not like you chose to be dead.

...If you actually chose to be dead this is going to get really awkward again in about three seconds.

[glaciates]

[...okay that really shouldn't have made him laugh as hard as it did, holy shit.]

No, I didn't choose to die. I mean, I did something that most people would probably classify as suicidal, but I genuinely thought it would work, or at least do what I wanted it to, even if it did cost me my life.

[fatalissimo]

Well, that makes sense, at least. I'm not really one for flat-out self-sacrificing, myself - if you don't think it's going to work or accomplish anything, then it's just a waste of everyone's time.

[glaciates]

I'd say it's more of a waste of your life, but yeah, I get what you mean. I've never understood how people can be so self-sacrificing. You've got to care about yourself at least a little bit if you want to get anything done.

[fatalissimo]

Right. I guess there's something to be said for caring about your cause that much, but there's a difference between being willing to give your life for something and not really caring if you do.

[glaciates]

Exactly. If it's a sacrifice that'll benefit your cause then yeah, I can see where it might be appealing. I still think it'd be more useful to try to stay alive, but I guess there is something to be said about being a martyr for a cause.

[fatalissimo]

They say that every cause needs a few, and I'm not unfamiliar with creating some myself, if it's necessary.

...Flat-out martyrdom isn't really appealing to me either, obviously.

[glaciates]

I don't blame you. It's not something I'd do unless it was absolutely necessary.

[...he kind of failed miserably at it, even if it wasn't his original intention, um.]

[fatalissimo]

So what happened? Was it battle?

[glaciates]

Yeah. It's... kinda hard to explain the whole thing, but I found out about a massive government conspiracy that had been going on for years and was leading up to destroying the entire country to make a super powerful object.

...That made way more sense back home, but anyway, I discovered all this and decided to stop it by taking out the Fuhrer. So I attempted to freeze the capital over to kill him, but that didn't really work and I ended up fighting him. I don't know exactly what happened, but he killed me before I could even get a hit on him. He was way faster than I was expecting.

[HE'S IN HIS SIXTIES GODDAMN]

I didn't have anyone else helping me out and I know I made some huge mistakes doing all that to take out one man. I killed a lot of people who didn't need to die and destroyed a lot of property. None of it had to happen if I'd figured out another way or at least tried to get someone else's help.

[You know, someone who's not Kimblee.]

I did what I thought was best at the time though.

[fatalissimo]

...Not to be rude, Beastmaster, but your life was pretty terrible.

[Because she's still going to point it out, but god forbid she be rude about it.]

Don't worry about it making sense, though, the sort of stuff we're fighting is the kind of thing that you wouldn't believe even with your own crazy background.

You did what you could, though. And sometimes you can't get people's help in the first place.

[glaciates]

I thought about denying that, but yeah, you're right. My life was pretty awful.

[orz]

Yeah, I know. Still, I didn't bother exploring other options and went for the craziest one. To be honest I'm really not sure how I survived as long as I did because this is a reoccurring theme.

[How did he survive the Ishval War, he'll never understand.]

[fatalissimo]

Well, there's definitely something to be said for crazy.

[glaciates]

...If I'm perfectly honest, it was kind of fun riding a glacier through the city.

[fatalissimo]

See, there you go!

I'd ask how you managed that, but I'm willing to accept it as surreal bullshit that's probably better unexplained.

[glaciates]

It's alchemy, though everyone thinks that's turning lead into gold, so apparently Amestris is the only place where it works this way.

So yeah, surreal bullshit, basically.